Resting but to what Cost?

Today was the first day I could  "rest", I decided not to do anything maybe a bad call since I have a test in two days but well I could not focus. Language History is just to much right now, I even had a bad dream about it can It get worse:S yuuuk. I dreamt that I was doing the test and I did not know how to answer:S:S I'm thinking about the test even when I am supposed to be resting :S:S:S:
 Well a good thing today was that I went shopping yaaay;)  I got a lovley jacket. However, The highlight of my day was probably when  talked to my mother and sister in Lebanon through Skype, I love skype, what's not to love, free video and phonecalls :P I miss them so much I misss my life there. Sometime it seems like I wanna leave everything here and go back. Go back to my neighborhood, back to my house just to go back.  I don't know why I'm so attatched to that lifestyle , maybe because there is always action there ur always doing something. Here it seems like you're watching you're life SLOWLY passing infront of you . One thing that helps me through this depressing life:P is the presence of my family and friends .
Right now my Dad is here with my brothers its always nice with company, they're watching a boring tv-show but I'm just glad to have someone here so I wont study hahahah. Teta tried to force me into studing today but no I can't do it well I'll be sorry tomorrow. Now I have to go , I start at 9 tomorrow because I have an appointment at the University.
See you all ;)

WHYYYY ?????????

I turn and puff, with bloodshot eyes I look up at the ceiling. Am I supposed to be doing this again??? When will this end!!! If you thought I was a vampire you were wrong I'm just having insomnia problems. I can't beleive I'm doing this to myself again! I'm enetring a bad circle again, a circle without strucure or form. Yesterday, I coul'nt go to sleep, I was sleepless :S I tried really hard , I thought about relaxing things,  about not to overthink stuff but nothing seemed to work. I had a similar problem 3 years ago but that lasted almost a month, I hope it does not happen this time. To make things worse , when I finally managed to sleep my phone rang  at 8.00 It was  from my "workplace", they wanted me to be at work at 8.20 hehhe imagine how stressful thaat was!!! The day there was Ok , kids running all over the place as usual . Geuss which Subject I had? Did you geuss hahah If u know me well you'll never beleive it. I HAD MATH!! God I hate math, I don't know why I said yes to that:p well I gess it was OK. Like any other class I've had.

Anways I came home around 12.00 and ate and went to bed again, I was very glad to sleep for almost 2 hours without any disturbance My hubby was at school :P:P( I needed that I can tell ya) . 
Right now I'm watching tv and chatting ( as usual) ; I should be studying but I don't know why I am not. Maybe I just like to suffer and feel the pain of studying the day before hahhaha, I'm laughing now but I'll be crying on friday :S ;S
Finally, If you know a good tip that can help me sleep fast , don't hesitate to tell me
Love ya!!

Confused :S :S

Today was a tough day. Well not so much but still. First I had Didactics ( usggghh) and then Translation. Translation is kind of ok I think , we laugh a lot during that session that's probably why:P
Then I went to my Daddy, he was not at home :S. But my lovley brothers were , we made food, chicken and rice yummyyyyyyyyyyyy:P . Then I watched Tv which was kind of boring. I actually had  a lot to do but now that I think about it , my day was boring:P hahah no but the highlight of my day was probably when my hubby took me to get ICE Cream. ( that's just sad hahah) And seeing teta ofcourse :*
One thing that's annoying me is my next subject. I'm going to become an English teacher ( it might not show on my writing here but still:P) and I have to choose a second subject, I'm thinking about taking Swedish as a Second Language but today I found out that it takes almost 2 years to complete that course:S So now I'm stuck with psychology. I hope I get a job when I finish my education:S
well enough about my problems I have to "study now"
Peace

Amazing Coco!!!!!!!!!

Today I had a really good day . I woke up at 11 and had breakfast alone. My hubby was off to Stockholm to do some buisiness :S I miss him. Anyways . Next, I went to my univeristy to return a bok to Örsi. I was glad to find both Em and Örsi "studying". It was great meeting them ;) . And to make my day even better, teta showed up and we all decided to head for CoffeHouse There,. I had a great coco , usually I don't like the coco they have but this time  it was amazing, maybe due to the go company  I'm very blessed to have good friends in my life , they make the hard days seem lighter;). Later teta and I went windowshopping :S which is very sad for a shopohlic like myself. I love to shop not to WATCH amazing valuables:P!!
Anhooo:P ( this one is for u em:P), now im siting at my sisters while her son haidar seems to have a sugar rush:P Masha2alla he has loads of enegry , running around like crazy:P
Well this was my day, now Im hugry and tired and I want to spend some quality time with my lovley family and sister TETA

 

A Love Story

Woow I cant't beleive it , this is my second contribution today!. Well the truth is  a lot of you guyz have asked me about the movie I saw so I though I would tell u about it. Well Friday night I was off to Vänersborg with Irsa, Emma and Jenny to se the movie NEW MOON. I though it was  good waaaaaay better than the first one. For those of you who have not seen Twilight you should see it to understand the plot. Maybe to many "making out scenes" in NEw MOON but besides that it was  entertaining... Although they had taken away some chapters from the book, it remained welldone. Nontheless, it was a great experience but i wish teta was with me but she bailed on Me .
Well if u wanna know more u gotta PAY and go see it yourself no more insider secrets from me :P

The World Against YoU???

Have you ever felt that the whole world is against you? That you're ready to give up? I'm sure most of us have had this sad feeling. A feeling that nearly takes over your everyday life, that not only destroys you but also the people close to you. I must admit I had this feeling a couple of days ago. I was off to see the film New Moon ( it was awsome by the way) but somehow it did not feel right. I felt like I did not want to see anyone, almost like I did not deserve to have fun.Now that I think about it it feels kind of silly and  Alhamdulliah this feelings took off due to friends and family. But the main reason that I felt better was that I thought about how small my problems were comparing to others. Surley, my problems can not be compared to my Imam's who lost his whole family, friends and in the end was a martyr himself .Or if I think about God's greatness I shall not remember my prblems. So the next time you're in trouble look up to the sky and consider the greatness.

BORED

I know I have not been blogging for quite a while now but the truth is I've ben to lazy! Yes that's another part of me lazyness:P The past weeks I'v been living life like usual. However, I'm dissapointed with myself for not reconnecting with my religious self.I don't know why but it has not been so good latley, mabe I've had too much to do. I know its a bad excuse but I don't know how to explain my behaviour.I hope ALLAH will give me the strength to contioue on his great path.. Moving on to my boring day ,  today was a nice but tough day . I went to work came home prayed made food and went up to get my baby dose ( my nephew haidar). I can't survive without a baby dose a day haha I know it sound crazy but that's just me. Now Im still sitting at my sister's and is almost gonna drop dead , that's how tired I am. So yea this was my wohoo day hope u guyz had it more intresting !
IM OUT YA ALL
Princess (that's MOI)